fear has to do with getting what I want. Sometimes I feel so selfish in my own
endeavours that I delibrately set out to destroy them. This makes it difficult
to acheive a lot because I am always objective to the point of incompletion.
My conscience baulks at the moment the concequences of my actions are revealled.
I am a single person in my early thirties and as yet have no want or need for
a family, a car, a house, a vacation plan, whatever, and my ambition has been
altogether good-natured but incredibly slow in coming in terms of asking for
what I truley want out of this life. To understand my anxiety I would ask you
to think about the notion of a collective responsiblity which goes beyond the
normal parameters of social, economic, biological, political or anything idealogical.
The metaphysical and mystical world of the unconscious is where most of my fears
lay. I often experience a unexplained disquietude which seems to come from within
but without any tangi! ble reference point to my individual psyche. This has
made me expect the possibly of greater interaction occuring between all persons
alive at this moment. We are all vital as far as achieving humanities balance.
I fear if I tip the scales, and push my own self worth into the spotlight -
all hell will break loose. I am aware of karmic forces which are busy at work
and these forces have an inventory or agenda which is all powerful. Not all
will be there at the end. I hope I am not, but fear I will be. Thanks.
--crag, Male, Australia
not being anything after death. just darkness, really not even that, you wont
know your dead, there will be no more you and mankind will not remember you
--Anthony, Male, Australia
are my biggest fear. Moreso when I was a child. I haven't put myself in any
position to face one for many years, so I dont know how I would react to them
these days. Driving a car is another one. Never obtained a driving license.
Pathetic, I know.
--Rachel, Female, Australia
being able to change, being stuck , not being sure what I think is correct ,
it could be a misconception. getting fatter. not being able to walk. best wishes
I am afraid for the future of the planet. I believe humanity is on a path of
destruction, and will take all life on the earth with it. The earth cannot sustain
us in our needless consumption. The ecosphere cannot withstand our brutal impact.
I believe we will not wake up to ourselves until it is too late. Prehaps it
Fears? Im afraid of madness , firstly in myself and secondly in those close
to me. My mother was Bi-polar and I grew up trying to negotiate around the limits
of her illness, so while I feel a great deal of compassion towards people expieriancing
psychosis ,Im very afraid of loss of sanity, my own and others. Nightmares?
My reaccuring nightmares always involved totalitarian armies or police forces
chaceing me. Since I was a child Ive had nightmares about Nazi stormtroopers
and the SS often Ive dreamt about concentration camps in which Im an inmate.
I am not Jewish or a Gypsy etc.
--Paul, Male, Australia
am afraid of myself and what I am, and what I have become. I am afraid of the
world that we live in and what we can do.
--Timothy, Male, Australia
being able to trust, or be trusted. To be alone - without love, or hope. To
be lost in an unknown wilderness - either real, or emotional. I fear not having
a future - not having prospects for the future, to not become what I wish to
- that is my fear. To lose faith, in people, myself and God. I fear many things,
but my fears help motivate me into being successful in what I do.
--Fiona, Female, Australia
am, figuratively speaking, afraid of the bogey man. i am afraid of hunger, i
am afraid of the hunger of other people (?). i am afraid of nothing and of nothingness,
i'm afraid of...
--Sadbada, Female, Australia
--Y, Female, Australia
fear that I am in the wrong relationship, that the past three years have been
wasted, that my dog wont have a mother when I leave and that if he leaves I
wont have a dog. I fear that one day ill realise he's not the right one for
me and then regret half our life together. I fear being left alone, being bored
and angry. I fear of getting hit by a car even though i have never been close
to it. I am in fear that I will get caught out but I am yet to figure out what
I am doing wrong. I am in fear that I will one day come to work and my computer
will be gone and I'll have to work behind a bar again because apparently I was
really good at it. I am in fear tha he wont come home one night and ill have
to pay all the bills alone. I am scared of starting conversations, of being
responsible to entertain people I dont really know. I am in fear of forgetting
what I used to be like before I became 'serious', that I will never be childish
and flirtacious, and very spur-of-the-moment.! ! I still fear my lecturers even
thought they were very nice to me, they should have told me that five years
studying art would lead me into graphics. I fear that I will lose my looks and
then assume I am going to lose the life I have, that he will go for someone
younger and better.
--Shannon, Female, Australia
am afraid of quite a lot of things, such as heights and closed in spaces, but
more than anything else, I am afraid of myself. Afraid that I shall never accomplish
any of my dreams, or that I shall hate myself, that I really am what I see on
those dark lonesome nights, or that I shall turn myself into that because of
--Shanna, Female, Australia
--Sammie, Female, Australia
of never resolving this need to have a child - what if I leave him because he
doesn't want one, and probably never will now we've been together for 7 years
- how do I really know if it is a child I want when I have never had one to
experience anyway...it's just a very deep lack...something missing. Anyway,
that's my heart's sorrow and fear. I don't want to be bitter person, and I don't
want to stunt anyone's growth. How do you know when to make the right decision?
Am I too old already anyway?
--Jan, Female, Australia
not being enough, doing enough- getting enough done. And yet I fear nothing.
Fear is the source of all discomfort and dis-ease. Life is not meant to be feared.
--Starry, Female, Australia
in oneself...not creative when I needed to be...
--Korene, Female, Australia
the usual bourgeois fears: success, not being liked, failure, waking up alone,
waking up in a state of melancholia yet again... I fear that my ignorance and
stubbornness will hurt someone, that my society is fragmented to the extent
that I don't know who lives next door. I fear that I will age alone, that I
will choose to stay with my long term love who doesn't want to be a father and
may leave me when I am menopausal, and so denying myself the experiences of
lifelong mothering. Oh yes, and I fear small, dark spaces. I acknowledge that
my existance as a relatively affluent urban dweller, from a developed democratic
nation, allows me to sit in front of a computer and dwell on my fears (and wonder
if grey is "really" the new black). I am a voluntary inmate here - I could choose
to stop using these fears as yet another procrastination device, and just "get
on with it" and do my best to contribute to the world in a "brave" way. I do
not have to worry about not having enough to eat, I only need one pillow, and
I don't need to worry that my children are going to be slaughtered today. I
fear that many levels of our world's social stratum will not be represented
in this project. And it scares me that I am capable of violence.
--Jacinta, Female, Australia
fear is that my partner is not my true love. I fear for the future. Because
life seems unpridictable right now. Things seem to happen and I don't seem to
have any control over them. I am afraid of change and if I make a decision it
will be the wrong one.
--email@example.com, Female, Australia
Nightmares? fear of failing , being found out that i'm not good at what i do,
that i'm realy a shy scared 5 year old covering by being loud & bold when all
i want to do is run & hide.those are my fears. (good luck with the project ,
it sounds great, can you let me know how it goes cheers doug)
--Doug, Male, Australia
am afraid that my friend Margo and her husband Doug will stuff themselves up
due to their own fears of failure. I am afraid of this because I love them both.
They are both artists in their own rights and have a talent that the world would
love and appreciate if there was the chance to do so.
--Sue DeVries, Female, Australia
can I start ? The question asks what I am afraid of but there can be so many
thing to be afraid of. Can it only encompass the superficial ? I mean, I am
afraid of growing old, not having the best of everything, not suceeding ( exceptionally
well ) in my chosen profession...etc... Or I can read it as fearing the day
my parents or sister dies, or even my little dog, or fearing that my boyfriend
is the one and only right guy for me. They can all vary in size and magnitude,
but I guess the crux of the matter is.....that I fear not living my one and
only life to its upmost. You could also put this down to being very late at
night, and a chronic case of sleep depravation. ???
--Erin, Female, Australia
fear regret. I have had so many opportunities, in fact a spiritualist once told
me I was born with luck and great spiritual protection ( I am not a believer
but sense a truth in what he said). He criticized me because I had been given
so many opportunities , for health wealth and happiness but neither recognised
them nor took the right path. I seek always what I consider the safest and least
imposing on others, in life - others always come first. There were so many things
I wanted to do and I had all the opportunities to do them. But I gave up the
acting role to a friend (because it meant more to her) - I didn't pursue a man
because another needed him more - I gave another the house because he was lost
without a base - I didn't go out with E because the man I was living with might
have been hurt despite the fact he was sleeping with my friend. I have given
up these things because I was raised to always try to consider others. I still
do. In my work I risk losing my job
so that others can seem more generous, I withhold information so that others
don't loose their jobs - making me the guilty party. It's not that I regret
doing these things and it is not that I am a martyr but in the mean time I wonder
if I had been more like those I aided and abetted perhaps I would be more than
I am now. That generic what if. Yet so far I am happy, so far still content.
But as I get older and the years start to show and the scars of my choices no
longer fade. I fear the what ifs and the if onlys that creep in every now and
then (for now)
--Joanna, Female, Australia
afraid of madness.I'm afraid of living out the wrong path for myself due to
avoiding what I fear in my life!!!! I'm afraid of never-ending lonliness. I'm
afraid of being laughed at. I'm afraid of hurting people. I'm afraid of being
stuck in a rut. I'm afraid for the future of the world.
--Fiona, Female, Australia
there are no chances left.
--Doobie, Male, Australia
BEING ALONE, INTRUDERS, NUCLEAR WAR, HATE, NO TRUST Nightmares? I AM A LITTLE
GIRL WALKING DOWN THE STREET. FLASH! THERE IS A HUGE PIECE OF MACHINERY, IT'S
SO LOUD AND I,M SO AFRAID. THE LITTLE ME ON THE STREET IS OBLIVIOUS. I TRY TO
WARN HER, TO WARN ME, BUT SHE(I) CAN'T HEAR MY SCREAMS.
--Althea, Female, Australia
not reaching my potential. Of wasting precious life and the oppurtunity to contribute
to humanity, our understanding of ourselves,the planet we share and attempting
to assist healing: psychologically, spiritually,phisically etc both myself and
those around me. I am an artist too. Goodluck!!
--Marie, Female, Australia
is also not finding anybody to love me. Also I have been realizing lately with
the assistance of my psychiatrist that one of the reasons that I became an artist
is that I live in fear of being put away into a lunatic asylum as my grandmother
was by her husband. Powerlessness is one of the least enjoyed of my emotional
states and I live in fear of this. Therefore the more grants, shows, good reviews,
scholarships I get the better I feel about myself. I'm wondering what to do
--Liz, Female, Australia